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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 02:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why did i forgive my father ?

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Ive learnt so much.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

When she asked me how she looked .

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She wouldn,t have been !

I could never make a relationship work though!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was very sick at this time too.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was 9 years of age.

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What did i know ?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It was going to be , some day.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

One cannot live in the past .

This is soul school!.

She married twice! .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But it wasn’t much.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Comes on , in middle age.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

We were not on the streets..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My family never makes their pension either.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But, we were locked up after school.

And i lived it daily.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

So, i spoilt her more .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I never cut or harmed myself..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Put me off passion for life!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I don,t even have a pension.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Who then, do I blame.?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I waited trembling.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was seconnd youngest,

My life is so biszare .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He knew the spot.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She loved him until the end.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Especially a lifetime of it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I will be 64.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I think the readers, may guess!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

We all went to grammer schools

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But ive been too sick for many years..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She was in good health!

He resisted the act ,that day.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I write beautiful poetry .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Would this be the day?

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im still living with it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

So whats the point in blame.

I was scared of men, in general

She found it foreign!.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

All the time i was locked up.

I have no regrets .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I know ,a lot about trauma.